有些人当得不到某些东西的时候会更努力去得取， 有些人会选择放弃。

有时候距离会产生在一起的渴望，可有时候会导致记忆的淡却

有的人越不被在乎越积极， 有的人会变得更不在乎

牺牲

有的人觉得如果可以牺牲自己， 他人就一定会被挽救。 可是往往，结果却是两败俱伤。 


有一个故事是这样的， 哥哥为了想让弟弟得到自己小的时候不成得到的父爱， 家庭的温暖，而牺牲自己的现状，在没有任何能力的情况下去选择抚养自已残疾的弟弟。


因此他选择对自己的女友不负责任， 毅然而然的离开了她。 


也许哥哥觉得自己很伟大， 牺牲了自己的幸福， 自由， 以及一切去帮助一个同父异母的弟弟。 当弟弟的亲生父亲和母亲都放弃了的时候， 由自己本没有能力的哥哥挑起了生存的负担。 


但是我觉得， 事实上，哥哥是自私的， 哥哥所做的一切并没有帮到任何人， 反而害了所有人。 
为了弥补自己曾经所失去的家庭，所以选择夺取弟弟康复的可能性， 一个父亲所应该担当的责任， 和辜负了一个女人所对他的爱。四败俱伤所得到的仅仅是哥哥自己心里的安稳。 


有的时候， 该担当的人没有付出， 不该担当的人多余的付出。 两种情况所得到的结果都是可悲的。


自以为是是一种很愚蠢的行为， 所以， 人在世界上需要找到知己，若果是我，我希望在我迷茫的时候我的知己可以为我指出一条明亮的路，在我错误的时候，会不顾一切的阻止，付出。也许这样世界上会少一些不快乐的事情，少一些伤心。

[Part 2] Every great dress starts with SHOPPING

A continuation..

Dress four
store: Guess by Marciano 
size: extra small
I really do not like this dress.. it is made of silk .. which cause it to be really staticy.. and sticking to my legs... 
it does not even look very good... it makes me look fat and short >.< dislike! dislike! 

Dress Five
Store: BCBG (my favorite store!!!)

[Part 1] Every great dress starts with SHOPPING

A PHOTO FILLED ENTRY!

Graduation is getting really close.. I remember I was looking at the photos of the graduating class last year, and this one person wore a really beautiful red dress, it was a little revealing, but beautiful/eye catching at the same time... ever since then... I have made it my mission to find a dress that will let me stand out in a crowd! 

Needless to say .. a great dress starts with shopping! 

I tried on a number of dresses today.. but.. because I do not have the attention span to finish commenting on all of them  in one day, so I will divide it into two parts.. stay tuned for part two <3

dress number one:
store: Express
price range: $130 with 30% discount +tax
size: 2

Reminiscing

I can still remember exactly what happened last year this day, it is the second day I was at Wuxi (the city where my bf is from) and we went to ChangZhou (常州) 

I probably have said this a million times before.. but I miss the great time I had in HongKong! I cannot think of any other time in my life when I had soooooo much fun! and met soooo many great people! Every time when I am stressed out about something, I would think that if I was in Hong Kong, none of it would matter!

I think while exchange is a great experience, too much of a great experience makes people refuse to move forward. I get Facebook status updates from friend I met Hong Kong reminiscing about the memories all the time! I would think that there were no better people I could have met than who I have met. There were no better experience I could have had than what I had. 

I try to keep a piece of memory alive whenever I can, so I kept a lot of things I got while I was aboard. 

The journey started from the two acceptance letter from my home university (Queen's) and Hong Kong University of Science and Technology (HKUST). I remember the day when we went to see our offers.. I was so nervous thinking I might not get my first choice... but when I asked bf.. he was like.. "of course I got my first choice"... sigh...

Pan Fried Tuna Nugget

Despite my uncontrollable addiction to Taiwanese drama, I am glad to keep up with my food diary <3
I had some canned tuna on hand with me today... I never know how people normally eat canned tuna... tuna cracker?? but I have always used it as a ingredient to make it into a dish!

Sometime I make tuna mixed rice...  which is delicious, fast, easy, and healthy! (now I want to eat it now >.<) but today I m going to make pan fried tuna nugget <3 with a little Taiwanese flare... (I think Taiwanese drama have affected me way too much )

Here is what is needed:
1/4 cup of tuna flake
1 egg
1/8 cup of all purpose flour
tapioca flour for coating
1/4 teaspoon of salt (adjust for taste)

Winter melon soup

 this is what I have resulted to..... no pressure from exam and no classes mean that I would lay in bed all day and too lazy to put on any makeup >.< but I will  need to get up eventually to cook some food for myself...
my parents are not on holiday yet so I need to feed myself...

I only started to cook for myself after I started university...therefore... my mom had little influence on my food/cooking style.. I am proud to say that I taught myself to cook (with the help of internet) so .. the ingredient I usually use are often not available at home.... this calls for some imagination! so I made winter melon soup..

winter melon soup with Chinese bun<3

 and here is how I started!!! keep reading!