有时候 宁愿选择留恋不放手

林夕写的歌词真好， 有时候我真的宁愿选择留恋不放手， 人生中的好多事情让人真的觉得放手会更容易， 没有瓜葛就可以简简单单。 

但是有时候面临着牵挂， 还是不舍得放手。 

大学快毕业了真是带来好多烦恼， 选择的工作也将决定怎样的人生。 我承认，我并不是一个非常上进的人， 我的满足点很低。 我不需要在我离开的那一刻有好多好多人都为我伤心， 感慨。 所以， 审请工作的时候我也并不期望什么大公司， 没必要 Forbes 前500 强公司， 只需要稳定而且不用怕明天公司有可能倒闭，有足够的钱去买衣服，旅游，和吃吃好吃的就够了。 

小公司也不会很忙， 每天9-5， 还可以晚上回家做饭，看电视。 吃完饭的时候有老公陪我一起做一些事情就很幸福了。 

我想要的是时间去自由自在， 我不喜欢压力。 有的人会希望自己的工作可以是自己喜欢的事情， 可我却不在乎， 因为任何与钱有关系的事情对我来说都是压力， 都不会喜欢。 

一个人做事情固然是无聊， 所以， 我对人生小小的要求就是可以有一个老公来常常陪我， 不是那种在一个屋檐下就可以了， 是要有互动的陪。 所以老公也不能很忙。 

有的时候因为留恋， 牵挂， 会做很多谦让，勉强， 但是我终会想到这一切并不是自己真正想要的， 向往的。 

所以因为留恋，我选择不放手，但是因为向往我也不想对我一直以来说向往的未来放手。

Home Alone

bf when to Toronto last night, so this weekend is a rare chance for me to do all the things I love but bf hates ~ <3

not that I do not miss bf, but a change is always good !

starting from last night.. I was being very unproductive, as usually, and could not focus on studying... so I made shrimp spring roll.... learning from the last time I made spring roll as seen in this post <-- click me to see. I made them much smaller this time! I am not a big meat eater... so biting a mouth full of meat was not so pleasant.... this time the spring roll has shrimp, egg and green peas <3 sooo good!

 I was waiting for bus today to go shipping downtown when I got really bored... the bus was late... there is a old lady smoking right beside me.... and the wind is blowing all of her smoke my way!!!!!!!! so I took some pics of the beautiful queen's university.

I have to say I kinda failed... my huge thumb is on the bottom left corner... ( I would photoshop it out .... but I m lazy >.<)

weight loss program?

I will admit this is not the most exciting entry... but I felt the social responsibility ( OMG... so much BS) to spread the word

One of my elective course this year is physical fitness.. its really hard, we have to memorize a lot of training rules, how many sets and reps.. etc.. but admittedly I learned a lot.... and it has kinda convinced me to changed my lifestyle a little bit... and I really want to share what I have learned

So a part of the course teaches how to lose weight.... I bet some of you are now thinking that I m a obsessive weight control freak who goes on diet every day... sigh...... I m not... and people who know me will know tell you that I eat every thing and in large quantities.. partly because I am blessed with an awesome metabolism that maintains my weight regardless of what I eat ... muahahahahaha (really some people are like that)

you be the judge, I m 5'5", 52 kg, average right? ( I swear I m not lying....... weight me any day)

university is really forcing a unhealthy lifestyle on me... I do not usually eat breakfast, large dinners, sleeping late, and no exercise... wow... no idea how many years I took off of my life by doing that

So in fitness class, we learned that eating breakfast is really important to loss weight! because:
1. you body is the most hungry in the morning after a whole night of no food.. so your metabolism (the rate food is digested)  is really high! and you can eat a lot and not gain any weight..

2. if you starve your self till noon, biologically, metabolism drops, so you eat a lot of food, but its not digested so it remains in your body to become fat!!!(NO!!!!!!)....

3. by night... biologically, your metabolism rate drops again.. as it prepare your body for sleep.. so the huge amount of food I eat just stays in my body to become fat >.<


therefore eating breakfast will keep your body full while not gain any weight!!!! soooo good!!!

so... now I have started to eat breakfast! and I hope everyone else do it too! but not sugary cereal la! protein (meat! eggs! tofu!) and complex carbs!!! (so I eat eggs or peanut butter with everything bagel!) 


There are so much really good information I want to share.. like, sleeping patterns.. what to drink... and how terrible Splanda is..... more later... maybe..

[PART3] M is for Montreal

Oct 23! OMG I am 21 >.< old... ..... recently i have been looking at my photos from a few years ago and ones I took in first year university... I do look much older... bigger bags under my eyes, wrinkles?

wish I can be forever 21.... sigh.. 

I　actually started  my 21 by watching dateline... late at night. pretty interesting! hope the rest of 21 is interesting too <3

here is the first photo I took of me at 21 years old..

Montreal has some really awesome graffiti! maybe Toronto has some too.... but I am not in the downtown area much.. but certainly not in Kingston! this is kinda of bad pic... does not show off how beautiful the graffiti actually is! I, myself, have learned all kinds of visual arts for years... and I do admire the free style of the graffiti, the lack of planing and just draw what you feel like! cause when I draw there is always a lot of outline, proportioning etc...